I'm in a serious pickle I got really mad at my special someone with have been talking for a yeah and yes are feeling for each other are strong we have talked about it but just the other day I got extremely up set and I dont really have a filter when mad I told her I hope she dies in a car wreck and called her a Cnt she has forgive me after my apologe sas if I do it again were through but she won't talk to me what should I do