Easing the Sadness...

[Aeradalia]

For most of my life I have been generally unhappy... easy to fade off into sadness. What little bit of happiness I do feel is fleeting and slips away to numbness. Everyday I have to fight a tumult of negative thoughts just to regain some level of control... force my thoughts to quiet... sometimes they do... sometimes they don't.

Lately I have been consumed by feelings of loneliness (even though I know I have someone who loves me) which combines with these hurtful thoughts and in turn leads me to feel saddened, angered, frustrated, and chips aware at my confidence. It becomes harder to find enjoyment in things... without feeling ridiculous or worthless... I know these feelings and thoughts are irrational, and I do try to fight them off with logic and positive thoughts, but my persistence is waning and I'm not sure what else I can do.

I remember when I was in school the counselor had me on fluoxetine hydrochloride for a few months. At the time, it moderated my emotions... feelings of sadness were short-lived and not nearly so sharp. I was happier for longer periods of time without cynical thoughts following shortly thereafter. I was able to think clearly, not troubled so easily by trivial things... and for lack of a better word... I felt 'normal.'

I can't help but to wonder if it's time I give this another try... I'm usually a very rational person and not prone to impulse... but some of these moments of sadness and hopelessness makes me worry.

[Sonrisa]

well, you know what i think of it.

[Sonrisa]

have you had your thyroid hormone checked?

[Sonrisa]

is your body happy? are you exercising? having sex? dancing?

[Aeradalia]

is your body happy? are you exercising? having sex? dancing?

I exercise everyday... love it actually... but about 30 min or so after a good workout... I go back to feeling more or less the same. Even when I was having sex on a regular basis... still the same types of feelings shortly thereafter... I tend to be too self-conscientious for dancing...

I'm just happy my sense of humor is still in tact... somewhat...

[misombra]

did you say you lost somebody in your family recently?

[misombra]

oh wait no i think that was eco...

[Indignant]

depression can be caused by overactive thyroid gland.

[lostbutfound4u]

It sounds to me that you have too much empty time on your hands. You are thinking yourself into a horrible time on this planet.

The secret to happiness is being easily amused. Keep yourself busy doing something you like doing, and be amused. How can you be sad when you are being amused?

[lovesjoyajm]

I'm going to pass on Vashti's advice as just another suggestion - have you tried volunteering? Some sort of hard work that will have you busy, active, and feeling good about what you're doing.

[Aeradalia]

did you say you lost somebody in your family recently?

A childhood friend committed suicide last New Year's... but I don't feel hurt by that.. I don't think... I didn't cry at the funeral, but then again... I never cry at funerals. Then my Grandmother died a few months later, she had Alzheimer's and at the end I was the only grandchild she remembered.

depression can be caused by overactive thyroid gland.

I'll look into that Indignant...

It sounds to me that you have too much empty time on your hands. You are thinking yourself into a horrible time on this planet.

The secret to happiness is being easily amused. Keep yourself busy doing something you like doing, and be amused. How can you be sad when you are being amused?

Lost, I draw, write, construct websites, research laws, rules and regulations pertaining to my work, have a pet (a cat), sculpt, and try to fill my time as much as I can.

I understand the concept of keeping an idle mind entertained... however, these thoughts and feelings do not abate.

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I am in a position now to where this drug is available to me... and was just curious if it would be wise to try this again, considering last time the results proved to be rather fruitful. It would be nice to have this sadness be greatly reduced.

[lostbutfound4u]

I am in a position now to where this drug is available to me... and was just curious if it would be wise to try this again, considering last time the results proved to be rather fruitful. It would be nice to have this sadness be greatly reduced.

I would avoid drugs at all costs. If you really have a mental disorder, then maybe you do need them. Typically drugs mask the problem. Fix the issues that are truly bothering or polluting you.

Stop putting garbage inside of you, stop using plastics, eat organic, avoid additives and artificial like the plague. Go natural. The world will brighten.

[lovesjoyajm]

depression can be caused by overactive thyroid gland.

interesting. so could an underactive thyroid/no thyroid make a person euphoric?

[lostbutfound4u]

I am in a position now to where this drug is available to me... and was just curious if it would be wise to try this again, considering last time the results proved to be rather fruitful. It would be nice to have this sadness be greatly reduced.

You talking about X? That experience can heal and bring depth to relationships. I will agree to that.

[lostbutfound4u]

interesting. so could an underactive thyroid/no thyroid make a person euphoric?

We should all disable it then, no?