Hi im new to this forum hope your all good.
Summery
long and short of it im in love with my close female friend she's got a new bf and im hurt dont know whether to be selfish and tell her (I dont wnat to do really) or carry on like nothing happened.
I've been friends with this girl for a long time now (8 years) and shes just amazing (obviously) we hang out alot and she does things for me all the time:
she takes me to the gym where she works and get me in for free (alot),
invited to london to stay in the same bed as her in a hotel room even tho she could have asked anyone else,
takes me out even when i have no money and insists I go till I say yes,
hugs me kises me on the cheek all the time,
recently (last week) invited me to watch scary dvds holds me tightly and asks me to stay over and sleep with her co shes scared
we go for long walks together
shes txts me all the time asking if im free and tells me she mises me allways with louds of xxxxx and tells me she loves me
we have moments where we just look into eachothers eyes and she smiles
and varies other things
Now I may very well be mistaking very close friendship for love ut I just feel like she likes me like I like her I was allways there for her when she needed me (splitting up with bf's, shoulder to cry on etc)
But recently (2 days ago) facebook changed from single to releshionship and saw the messages people saying things like "Finally" etc, I was heartbroken cos I was gonna tell her how I felt this thursday. she txt me again today asking if I was working and what time I was in till and saying she misses me i txt bk saying theres nothing to miss and she says you are.
Im just confused as to why she would want to spend time alone with me all the time now she has a bf and looks like she has been wanting to be with him for awile.
Im just really really confused and need some sort of closure.
thanks