My love life has been everything but normal. i must start off by saying that i developed early as a child (getting my peroid at 8 skipping a grade having all older freinds). i lost my virginist when i was 13 to no one specail. i love sex always have and i always will. but thats all it was to me sex. until i was 14. i met this guy who i thought was amazing. he was 18 and knew he was in the wrong to even suggest anything in his talking. he was polite and kind and treated me great. but then things got sour when i told him how much i liked him..i meant more as a person then as a sexual item. he got crazy and started stalking me. he was put in the same re-hab/ mental hospitil as me and i was so scared of him. by the end of that year he hung himself. i still think of him all the time. a coupek of mounths latter i met the love of my life. problem being that he lived 4 hours away from me and smoked to mcuh pot to remember half the time we spent with each other. but it treated me like a queen. im even whereing his shirt and the ring he gave me. having sex with him was not ****ing for pure pleasure anymore it was like making love i felt passion and cried more i thought possible. but when push comes to shove relationships with unsebel men who live far away sont work out so we have been on and off for the past year and half. after a coupel of mis hab relationships just for the fun of daiting i met an insnae nazie asswhole. but i didant know any of that at the time. we were with each other about 6 mounths and i could not get over him and he made me fall in love with him and i thought that he loved me (becouse well he said he did). we ended up breaking up becouse i cheated on him and thought he deserved better the enst day i told him about it and told him i needed time. there was a time peroid after i brok eup with him that was the longest time i had no sexual contact in years. He ended up hating me and i figured he was right. about 4 days ago i talked to 3 other girls that he said he loved and said the same things to them about moving in with them and wanted to marry them. for along time i have loved (more as a freind) my ex bestfreind who knew everything about me it turns out that he knew the entire time. i hate being in love and becouse of my past i have become to distent from people my mother wants to put me back in the hospitil (im not suicidul or anything my mother is just stupid) so tell me...give me a reason i shoudl beilive that love is a good thing