Hi guys,
I was speaking to a girl for about a year we would speak every day and it felt like things where going great, I didn't take long before I started to develop feelings for this girl, so one day I plucked up the courage to tell her how I felt, it turns out she felt the same way about me, so that was great. After speaking to her for about another month my feelings really started to grow, I told her I think we should start something with each other, I mean why not right? We both liked each other, but after I said this she started acting differently, we barley spoke after that and she was keeping her distance from me, I had a feeling she didn't have these "feelings" for me anymore, I said to her maybe it's a good idea if we stopped contact for about a week, that was the hardiest week of my life, after the long week ended I told her that I still felt the same way, she the said "these past few days made me realise that I do want you in my life, but I'm not ready for a relationship no so I'm happy as friends for now", that was great I was more then happy to wait for her even if it took along time, but things didn't change, we still barley spoke and she was still keeping her distance, I said to her "you don't want a relationship with me do you" long story short she never had feelings for me to begin with, she just made up all those things to prevent me from being "hurt" but what she did made me hurt even more, I felt stupid, started blaming it on myself, "was it because I'm not good enough?" "Did I do something wrong?" She said I think it's best you block me from your life in order for you to move on, this broke my heart, how could someone make me feel so wanted, but then in the space of hours make me feel useless, I tried everything I could to get her back, but nothing worked, and no I'm sat it trying to fix myself together, but what hurt the most is how easy she made it look to move on, it was like everything that happens of the course of a year was a waste of time, I also suffer from anxiety and depression and this made get over her 10x harder, any advice?
Thank you