Hey everyone,
So my ex broke up with me two months ago, we kept in very sporadic contact where he kept telling me he loves me and would like a future again eventually (still does, I believe that much) until a month ago. Until then, I got a little better each day but that was partly because I very much clung onto the hope of us getting back together again. Then I found out he was already very busy with other girls, although he still missed and loved me very much. But that kind of helped me move on a little more since I deserve more than that.
Now since then, I have been getting better, and I would say I'm in a pretty OK place. I miss him, sure, I still think about him several times each day, and I think about both how it would be if we got back together again and also about how he is having fun with other girls. So I got a lot of mixed feelings, but it has been a few weeks since I last cried about this. I'm not 'happy', but I'm not absolutely depressed or anything. I'm OK.
But I've been 'OK' for quite a while now, close to a month. I've just got this 'blah' feeling that never goes in either direction... sometimes I'm a little sadder, sometimes a little happier, but it doesn't fluctuate much.
And I wonder how to get out of this. I got better and better and now I've hit a plateau and it doesn't get better (or worse) anymore. I guess I have to admit that sometimes I still hang on to the hope that someday him and I will give things a try again... and I still think (for reasons too long to discuss here) that that day will come, but not in the near future and it isn't something I want to get hung up on. But I still treasure that thought somehow. I already blocked him from chat, facebook and so on, and I try not to think about him that much.
What can I do to get over this plateau where I don't get better? I'm doing my best to keep occupied but I'm alone in a new city (his city to boot) and it's hard. I do a lot of stuff, but most of it by myself. Meeting new friends takes time. I've thought about dating again myself but so far nothing has come up. I would really like to meet someone or a few someones new and I guess it would help with this as well, but unfortunately I can't just snap my finger and the guys start queuing up...