I'll admit.. Im fairly young.. but experienced with dating and the ins and outs of relationships suprisingly enough for my age.
I have been with my boyfriend now for around 7 months but I have this aweful habit of falling for people, then when I have suceeded in my task of getting them become bored of them very quickly.
He lives up country but loves me veryvery much, he spends stupid amounts of money which he cant afford, though I ask him not to - simply on seeing me. He always tries his best, does things for me.. but I cant help sometimes taking things out on him then I feel bad and he knows once im guilty he is free to have his way as I tend to feel I must make it up.
However recently my close friend of many years has began speaking to me again after a fall out a summer ago. He invited me out to this pretty secluded location a few days ago and began to question me about my life now and in the past, more than anyone ever has before, I've never felt so cared for in all my life. I asked how he knew I had been upset or unhappy or stressed lately and he said he just felt it, he knew I hid behind false smiles, as I often do and said more than anything he wanted me to be geniunly happy. He then arranged to meet in our same place tomorrow. ever since I havent stopped thinking about him.. and once again this week my bf promised to help me with something but instead just didnt speak to me.. however if I did break up with him he would be devestated..and quiet frankly im terrified.. help