can i be heartbroken if i was the one who..

[secr3t]

.. broke it off? i broke it off with my gf 2 months ago after 13 months.. for the second time.. then recently its hit me that i am still in love with her.. and i told her how i felt, poured my heart out, literally.. she said she can't take me back because its the second time i've left her, it hurt me heaps.. but i know i was at fault for leaving her twice.. now i feel really.. empty? i don't know, can i feel like i just got my heart broken? i guess we kinda agreed we'd still be close friends.. she said shes not completely over me, i guess she's scared to be hurt again..

i guess all my talk won't do anything either.. so i just decided to see what the future holds.. what will happen.. if she realises or not.. or we just move on..

advice?

[Yggdrasil]

Leave her alone, work on yourself.

You broke up twice, there's a reason for that.

A relation is not about a roller coaster ride, it's about hard work and stability.

If she can't rely on you, she'll find someone she can rely on.

How do you imagine a relation will work out if you run away (because that's what you're doing) when the riding gets rough?

No commitment there as far as I can tell.