Hello everybody, first time posting and on this site.
I'm about to burst from my chest out with what I feel.
I know I love this woman but she keeps making me feel like she takes me serious for a little bit and then she crushes me like i'm a bug. How so? Well, today we went for lunch and it felt like the most loving time, towards the end she tells me that tonight she will go eat with a guy friend after the club. I said, it's fine, but my heart has sunk because i had hoped that she would want to spend sometime with me. I do not doubt that they are just friends. What bothers me is that I asked her, "well, at least we can dance a few songs together," but she said no because the guy would get offended and then he would tell her that they are not going to eat afterwards.
When we go out to eat she always rushes it, but when she was talking about going to eat with him tonight, she was telling me that she had no idea how long it would take her before she got back home.
I feel i'm being given the crumbs of her time all the time. Of course, I get to kiss her and for those few moments I feel like i'm all she cares about. I know that she doesn't have anybody else, because I trust her. Also we spend a lot of time on the phone, although she keeps talking to other people around her during that time, leaving me with my thoughts and the things I want to tell her for another time.
Wouldn't a woman that says that she loves a man want to be with him as much as possible? Would she tell him that she will not be dancing with him because a friend that she wants to talk to might not like it? Why would she put me aside as if i were something less than the man she loves. I love her to pieces but I'm feeling hurt about this and her going out again on friday, the day before her birthday, with the same guy to a concert. I wanted to go out with her that night to sing her happy birthday at midnight. I still maintain that there is nothing between them. My problem is why would she not give me more time for us?