Hi guys, I'm a guy, I am 21. I work at a retail store and I am madly in love with this person, she is my boss!!!
I know that's not good, but I can't help it. She has 2 kids, her and her husband are not together anymore. She is with another guy now and they've been engaged for 7 years now. The first time I met her, she was alright. I didn't have any feeling for her, I even hated her because I thought she was like my old horrible boss. But it turned out she was not. She is a good person, very kind, and very flexible. I thought about quitting my job and cut all my contacts with her but I can't. First of, I've been working there for almost 4 years now. I know that place and I am good at my job. I know the people, they like me and I like them too, to me, they are my family, I give my best when it comes to work. I am a full time student, I only work 2 days a week, and sometime I will need a whole week off or even two weeks off, I know if I ask she will not refuse me, that kind of flexibility is hard to find else where, and I just simply cannot afford to quit right now. And part of me giving my best, I guess it's because of her?!?!. At work we are pretty close, not like close close, but I am the person she would talk to about her plan for work, and when it comes to chit-chatting, I will say she talks to me more than anybody else in our department. I tried not to let my feelings show, and I know I did a pretty good job at that, but it's killing me inside. I see her every time I go to work, and you know how it feels like when the person you love is right next to you, yet you can't do any thing to show it. I think about her a lot, I really really love her, or at least that's what I think it is. This is not some kind of lust, I know my feeling for her is real and I've never had this feeling before toward anybody.
Anyway, she has a fiance, my chance with her is zero. I can't afford to leave job, so that is not an option, i have her facebook, block her would help, maybe????
What should I do?