just thought i'd share an update on my situation with the *emotional spaz* as gigabitch so eloquently coined him in a previous post...
i haven't spoken to/texted him in weeks. a few nights ago, i ended up hanging out with a few friends from high school that knew him. none of them knew we were "involved" this summer, but his name came up bc he has done quite a few shitty things to a lot of people i care about. basically hearing all the horrible things he's done without having him to talk to to charm me into thinking otherwise has made me realize that he really is a tool and a douchebag and that i DO deserve better than him.
then last night, i hung out with some of my little sister's friends who are still in high school. they went to school (although they're 1 and 2 years younger) with this boy. they also mentioned what an asshole he is.
i can't believe that i trusted him and accepted all the bullshit he fed me, even despite my better judgment and knowing all this stuff.
a friend from college told me he thought that i was just clinging on to this guy bc he was the first non-drunk hookup i've had since i went to college and it actually meant something, even if it wasn't love or whatever. i think he was right. BUT, i'm realizing i deserve more than just *something.* i deserve for someone to really care about me and love me.
no more falling for buttheads...