do you ever think about if your partner died?

[PussyCatDoll]

it happens to me when i'm alone, mostly during the night when i can't sleep..but i think about if my bfs not there because he's dead. it really freaks me out.

its like it just pops up in my mind. and as soon as it does it brings tears to my eyes.

i can't help it. sometimes, especially now that i'm super stressed, and coz i haven't seen him much lately. it's not like i sit and think nows a good time to think about this, so lets cry.

does this happen to anyone? he has to have a minor surgery aswell and thats freaking me out.

[GrkScorp]

does this happen to anyone?

When my grandfather passed away.., (car accident).., it started to happen more often..

I would randomly get flashbacks and think.., what if today.., the next moment.., or some time in the future.., something happens to someone I know.., a loved one.., family.., a friend.., a partner.., my dog.., and I never get to show them how much I love them.., how much they mean to me.., how much of an impact they've had on my life.., what if they are no more.., and I lose that chance to show them and let them know everything I wanted to?

So for the longest time.., everyone I knew would get random calls and hugs.., they though "I" was dying or that something was wrong and that I was hiding something from them.., but I think it's normal to think about the worst possible situation for those you really care about..

Best,

GrkScorp

[Junket]

Yeah, I've thought about that plenty of times.

[vashti]

My sisters and I have made a plan for the time when our spouses kick the bucket, actually.

What's the surgery your BF is having, PCD?

[Junket]

That's LNF?!

[squirrley]

I have thought about it, and I wouldn't remarry. I couldn't bare the thought of being without my husband. He had a scare 2 years ago, thought he was having a heart attack. It scared me. I know I can make it on my own, but I don't want to be without him. He's my best friend. I hate the thought of losing my son before my time, it breaks my heart. Or my parents. Or anyone. Death is a part of life, reality or not, it's not a pleasant thought and I do try to take everyday and stress to everyone how much I love them.

[DoesntMatter]

Odd you bring this up now, I just had a nightmare last night that my dad had a heart attack and died

[Junket]

It's LostnFound!

[Pears]

I've thought of it too! I'm actually quite paranoid. Almost everyday I think about death in one way or another. I'm morbid.

However, I'm one of the most cheerful person anyone could meet. I could win a smiling contest for smiling the longest, but I am very dark inside. Oops, that was supposed to be a secret. I guess you all know now.

I know I'd freak out if my partner died. There's no benefit in dwelling about that now though. When it happens, it happens, and I'll think about it when it comes.

[Kromat]

Well sometimes this is a state that you feel when your dreaming, after having
a bad day and think that everything is going wrong is going to happen to you.
Others might just get stressed out enough and actually think
about committing suicide when no one is expecting it.
We have to be happy and strong with what we have and everything will be ok.

P.S. I've thought about committing suicide multiple times because I thought I wasn't good
enough and felt isolated, but then decided to myself that it would be the easy way out.
I saw inside that I can actually make something out of myself and start thinking
positive and try and accomplishment something that I would be proud of.
As long as I have a mindset of trying my best and giving it all I have, eventually
everything will come together, and I'll be satisfied in the direction that my life going.

[PussyCatDoll]

When my grandfather passed away.., (car accident).., it started to happen more often..

GrkScorp

i've been to way too many funerals. i don't wana have to go to anymore.

My sisters and I have made a plan for the time when our spouses kick the bucket, actually.

What's the surgery your BF is having, PCD?

you have a plan? geeze vash, not an insurance scam or something?

i don't really like talking about it with him. he has to be unconcious and spend the night there. its in his mouth.

It's LostnFound!

well done fras. way to blow the cover.

[vashti]

you have a plan? geeze vash, not an insurance scam or something?

Nope - living arrangements. We are going to buy a big house with a porch and have 3 rocking chairs where we will sit and drink, smoke, and squirt kids that step on the grass with our garden hose.

[Junket]

well done fras. way to blow the cover.

Don't blame me, blame Vash.

Anyway, don't worry, nobody else will ever know.

I'm glad your back, I hate it when regulars leave.

[misombra]

when my bf dies i'm going to become a lesbian.

[PussyCatDoll]

woo go Sombre.

we spend a lot of time together thats all. i can't imagine life without him..