we split up 11 months back,had been together for a year.
we met up at least once a month since the break up to go cinema,theatre and for coffees. we chatted about how our work was goin etc. we wud only meet up by ourselves.
i poured my heart out to my exgirlfriend last week. I told her i loved her and only wanted to be with her. She began to cry and told me another ex (from 4 years back) was looking to be with her again. She told me she needed time to think as she wasnt ready. i said that was ok that if i didnt hear from her, that i wud know.
she apoligised for sleeping with me 3 weeks ago.
(It felt to me like it wasnt a '****' it was tender. she stayed in bed with me till lunchtime, holding each other and kissing) It really mixed me up.
She text me 2 days after i spilled my guts to her. and said she had gone to dinner with the other ex again and decided to try going out with him for a month to see how it goes.
she said she didnt want to leave me hanging on. told me i was brave to drive to her town and put myself out there. she said she loved me but only in a 'friendship' 'companionship' way. why did she sleep with me??
also asked questions about my day as if i was gona be fine with answering. like she expected id be ok with friends....
i text her back and said, 'id miss her. and to take care of herself.'
I have not contacted her since. (over 3 weeks ago now)
i unfriended her on fb and deleted her number.
funny thing is i wud take her back in a shot
i guess she understands that im not contacting her.?
its silly but i wonder if shes is angry at me now?
or is she just wrapped up in other ex newness.?