To tell you the truth, I really don't know what I do without LF at the moment.
I know this sounds sad, and to anybody who doesn't know me, it sounds like I'm an anti-social who needs to get a life. But that aside.
All the time I spend on LF I would prefer I was spending socializing. But I don't even know where to start. So I come home, and run through my routine of websites which always involves LF. Talking a bit with my friends on Teamspeak and playin' this or that game.
But any excitement from those games is so short lived and shallow at best. Last year I felt like I had a social life. I was afterall conveniently surrounded by 8 other very different personalities so there was always somethin' to do and always something, somebody to talk to. And I loved it! I savored every minute of it. And I was afraid this would happen. Comin' back and all. Getting back into my old routine. I try to spice things up by doin' somethin' crazy or goin' somewhere different. But it all feels so short lived.
I come here, and it's the closest thing to what I had before. I'm "surrounded" by all these different personalities and discuss various things. I enjoy it, don't get me wrong, but it's not enough. Where does somebody like me go to socialize? I wouldn't know where to start.
Last year made me realize that I really don't have the mentality of a "loner". I just live as one. I crave human interaction, but I can't seem to find what I'm looking for. Everything I do, every new person I meet, it all feels so empty. Work is the only thing that keeps my mind off of it.
But anyway, thanks guys, all you regs, for bein' here. I appreciate you all, and you deserve to know that. Without you all, I'd be just a little bit crazier.