I Think I Destroyed Our Relationship, I need advice

[stylez]

So my girlfriend and I have been living together for a few months now after dating for over a year. I really love her but I have communication problems because neither one of us communicate to each other sometimes until it turns into a big back and forth argument and we dont talk to each other.

This past week, she has been having family problems and I have been there for her, supporting her, kissing her on the cheek when shes mad but she has been cold to me. I got no form of affection from her, no kisses back on the cheek, no hugs, nothing and she kissed her dog 100% more then me. I put up with it through Friday and I just messed up. I went to craigslist in the casual encounter section and replied to someone on their because I needed to feel wanted. The person and I communicated but I never did anything with it. I just wanted to feel that Im valuable to someone in the world. I am a proud guy but I had really low self esteem this past week. She read the email and invited her friend to spend the weekend with her to support her which I did not understand until now. Ive apologized to her but she says she can't trust me anymore even though I did not do any physical cheating on her and I now after sitting on it for 2 days completely understand.

We spoke some this morning, and she made me breakfast but I do not know what to do. I wrote her a letter yesterday apologizing and agreeing that I understood how she was feeling. I gave it to her. I want to know if there is any way to rebuild the trust that I lost

[HeartIsAching]

You may have destroyed it, but you didn't do it alone.

You've both got issues. Several of them, from what I can tell from your post.

[MerryH]

I want to know if there is any way to rebuild the trust that I lost

Ask her. Only she knows what she needs from you in order to trust you again.

Personally, I don't buy your story that you felt so unloved after only a week that you felt the need to be validated by someone else. I would assume perusing Craigslist's seedy casual encounters section is something you've been doing for a while. You just happened to get caught while your girlfriend was going through some rough times so you had an easy excuse. Your girlfriend is probably thinking this as well.

[KingZ]

It can take an eternity to build up trust, but one incident to completely tear it down. I don't think you can regain lost trust, because there will always be scars.

Your best bet is to move on.

[xxazurexx]

Going looking for female company and after a week of troubles?

Is that how you figure problems are sorted? By going chatting to other females online?

Let me tell you this...she will NEVER trust you again.

[qwertz]

So she had problems and because you werent centre of her attention for a week, you went looking elsewhere?? Jeeez.