He ****ed me over so bad- again and again.. AM i just that stupid?

[should/shouldn']

So here is my story.. I have no idea if anyone will ever take the time to read it or even gives a **** to read and comment, but i sure dont know what to do anymore.

Started talking to this guy from paris, i myself find me very well placed in denmark. We started talking and after six months he kept talking about how he wanted to meet me. How he wanted to be a part of my life and go have drinks. In this period I was also applying to exchange, and he kinda pushed me into going to Paris, so we could spend time together in real. and he spend hours to find other places where he and I would easily be able to go see each other ( so liek one hour of transportation). BUT i got into paris. SO we started making some serious plans to see each other, but due to to his health issues he wasnt able to travel. not for the next six months. So I got all brave and bought myself a ticket. I lived at a friend of a friends place and I finally got to see him in real. Then he talked about how he always thought about other people and the outcome of his actions. it was pretty clear that we both wanted more in this moment...... BUT as always I was talking about a relationship and he.. a kiss... But i stood up saying, well if you are thinking too much about it then there aint much i can do about it and you probably shouldnt do anything about this "action" you talk about.
The day after he kissed me and we spend the night holding one another blablabalabla. Anyways! he doesnt do long distance relationships.

I come home and we still talk.. I stay a little distanced since my heart was broken. But then he tells me he has woken up at night wishing it was that night we spend together. Writes me messages like "spend the day thinking i wanna see you" And it should be noted we talk like 3-4 hours everyday and cam 70% of the time.

So... I had no money to see him again, and then he offers to pay the whole thing and that i can stay at his place. It would all be a birthday gift from him to me. i go there and its beautiful... Then on the third day he tells me there cant be anything between us when i come to paris.
"I can't" "there is too much bad things happening to me" " I' just dont want to be in a relatinoship"
He breaks my heart real good this time... I break it off when i come home. 2 weeks after we start talking a little again. And a month later i get a letter that tells a story about a guy who has.. hold on guys! WHO HAS A FREAKING GIRLFRIEND! he had been in a relationship all this time. he broke it up with her when i came there the first time, then she begged her way back after i left... and then he told her about me and she slapt him and left him..... THEN i came to visit him the second time.. and after that they started dating again...

I gave him the finger after that. and in the end asked him please to never contact me again. he did... He wants to be my friend. because we have this special bond. Because I am sweet and genuine and that he feels like he lost a lot. also told me that he dumped her because she couldnt accept that I was still important to him.

He still has feelings for me, but since i am going in december, he doesnt want to hurt me again. He wants to be friends.

What the hell do i do to a guy that has ****ed me more over than my selfrespect could ever imagine but that i care so unimaginable a lot for?

[cheekxxs]

I stay a little distanced since my heart was broken. --- then she begged her way back after i left...

You need to be clear yo. Who bagged who? and why was your heart broken?? cause you did kiss right? so dont understand why your heart was broken after that.

and im telling you i cant not even imagine how or why people on the internet do such a foolish moves.
by taking a chat conversation so serious to even call it relationship and take the plane to go to the person.
do people realize that chat is fake most of the time?
and they can end up in the house of a raper or serial killer?

I dont understand how disparate people are. why dont you go to a place in your country and city and meet people .

I think its a mess. be happy its all over. move on, and get a lesson out of it. Like stop believing in internet relationships and peoples.

[Illusional]

yes....to answer your question.

raverboy

[should/shouldn']

You guys are super hard on me.. I need it thanks.
but i am going to be spending my exchange year for 5 months in paris and i am going in 1 week.
I just have to grow a spine and have fun in paris with other exchange students.

But it was a really nice friendship that just happened to become a bit more. I too find it desparate to go over the internet to find people- and now i am on a web pages getting advices lol

But I just stop answering him and when he bitches out and goes drama I will ignore him with all the selfrespect i have left..

BUT it was his ex who begged him to go back to her.. I never begged no guy and never will. I just do something as foolish as staying around when i am asked too instead of thinking what is best for me in the long run. I just gotta start running

[should/shouldn']

His ex begged him to come back

I was broken because him of all was not the one to lie to me.. He of all knows this and because of his history and mine - integrity is all. You may not understand. he always excused me of lying when i said nothing was wrong, and always appeared as this person who for all causes in the world would never lie...
but he did.
and now he wants to be friends and spend time together.

[smackie9]

You have sex with this guy?

[should/shouldn']

No i didnt.

[cheekxxs]

Good, thats one big smart thing you did!

Cause you will be more hurt and worse if you did sex him.

[smackie9]

Good for you! Just stay away from him, the guy is a jerk.

[should/shouldn']

yeah.. i think the problem is that you try to figure out what is going on for him.. and you just cant! no use in spending time on these ****ed up people

[Petit Papillon]

Guys from Paris are assholes. This ain't only a stereotype