Okay would you classify this as a relationshp
seeing her everyday, even not on your own
calling eachother pet names
supporting eachother, financially and emotionally
no other guys hang out with her as much
takes me out all the time, inspite of the risks involved with losing her job
cooking eachother dinner
teasing, and love tapping eachother
introducuing me to your boss
telling me what to wear, and that you won't be around me
saying
i would be very happy if
i would really respect you if
my image of you has changed due to
getting into numerous fights
yet still there in the end despite
trusting eachtoerh with
email passwords
leaving alone in apartment
watching over things
her purse
leaving her laptop in my possession for long periods of time
and then joking about how i apparently looked at some photos
leaving photographs in my room
then saying that i don't need to be looking at other women
won't even let me give another girl a light
but she can talk to other guys infront of me
so, maybe she just makin gup these sexual encounters with other men
and is just trying to get me jealous?
but why
one minute she says no
the next yes
but i don't know what to do
because she says no
sometimes in the same day
sleeping over
she pulls me close
then pushes me away
then pulls me close
then pushes me away
when we are close
it's all bout us
then we get into a fight
and it's like that never happened
but we make up
next thing she is skiipping work
to watch firewords with m
i asked her to
and she said no
twice
then i was like
okay, i'll give you some time to think it over
5 minutes later she's like
i have the perfect spot
so she drive sme out of her way
ditches the car
and we watch them together
she skpped work to do this
and i just wanted to go down the road
she drove like freakin an hour out of the way
just to watch them with me
i paid half the way
then the rest was her for the trip
we hug eachother every day
she listens to everything i say and seems interested
she gets me to do her laundry for her
but
like i said
she claims we are not in a relationship
origionally she said
nothing would happen ever
lately she's stoped that
we were just friends
brother and sister
for awhile felt like she thoguht she was my mother
now
whenever i tell her i want more
she tells me
she will come to me
she's not ready yet
she wants me to work on these problems i have
that if i do not
i will not see her again
up down
up down
like a freakin bouncy castle
one minute she is not interested
the next minute she is saying and doin things to suggest otherwise
then we get real close
then we push eachother away
thn get really close
what does she want
cuz like i don't really know waht to do with this anymore
is she just a friend
was the other night a date
she never said anything about it
like comon
i felt it was a date
i know she probably knows i felt that
so isn't she going to say anything?
don't you usually say things like
"that wasn't a date"
arghh..
is she interested
is she just mental
or is she just playing some pointles sgame
i have treid to end this friendship wiht her numerious tiimes
and neither one of us seems to want to cave in the end
like just a week ago
we got into a huge fight
and then i wrote her this poiem
she said it was reall good she like it alot
now i see her everyday practically agiain
maybe she interested, but just don't know what to do?
maybe she is waiting for me to change
to grow up
there is an age difference
she once said that didn't matter to her
she got drunk one night, and said "maybe my feeling sfor you do matter"
so like..
is she secretly in love with me
and really confused
or is she just a minipulative, crazy girl?
:S :S :S :S
i really need advice here
i love this girl a lot
and i just wish i could at least know that she feels the same , even if she don't want to admit it
how do i find out
how can i trick her without her realizing it
into admitting what is really going on in her head
cuz i am fed up of waiting around for her
we became friends because i was told she liked me
then she found out how old i was
and then this all started
then her son moved into her place
blahblabh
moved iinto my place
it was hell
then he was gone
then some idiot i just beat up
was gossiping and shoving shit in her ears aout me
blah blah blah
fights
at least 4 of them in the last 6 months
and now
here we still are
wheres her osn
gone
wheres this other old fart
gone
okay
so here we are
i am the only one who sees her this much
i am the only one this close to her
i just want to know
without a doubt
even if she won't admit it yet
how she really feels :S
cuz i know how i feel