Let me say this first- it can be fun to pick at it, me and my bf both enjoy that aspect too, but I do like watching porn, even enjoy looking at other girls in them (i'm bi), and it can be fun watching with my bf.
i'd like to think i'm pretty secure with our relationship, not to mention i didn't mind any of this watching porn with him before, we'd go to porn stores and browse, i'd even suggest titles with some degree of excitment. And I'd love hearing his feedback on the film while we're watching- what he thought of certain scenes, certain porn stars, certain positions or whatever, even when he was describing what he like about some woman.
But lately (idk if its surging hormones or what), i almost feel sick when he suggests one, thinking of him watching these other girls with perfectly toned, sexy bodies i'll likely never have and getting aroused by it. I feel a bit sick thinking he thinks about that kind of thing/them even when we're not watching and wondering if he almost prefers looking at them, wants them, getting off thinking about them, and if it detracts from what he feels for me. Insight please!! I'm half afraid to ask even if i'm [almost] sure it means nothing. Details would be awesome
I know from when we've talked, while watching them and in regular conversation, he's said that when we're watching he's picturing me in place of the other girls, but can i beleive him? Does that in general mean anything? And if that's true, then why watch if he's just picturing me? i'm right there