I used to do that with my ex but didn't care for that puched in the stomach feeling. Don't be a glutton for punishment. Just remember how bad you felt last time you looked when you are tempted to look again.
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?