I am 25. About two years ago I lost my job in the northeast and had to relocate to live with my parents in the southeast. Shortly after this transition, I decided to pursue medical school. Since then I have worked in this field; I work almost everyday and work in emergency care- long and unusual hours. I am new to the area and I work 1-2 hours from where I live. As a result, I have not made any friends. I never go out and basically my life is work and being alone at home. I am a fairly outgoing guy but given the fact I have no friends, even guy friends, it makes it difficult to meet new people. I would give anything to have just one friend. I am well liked at work and all the girls love me but they are all in relationships or married (I dont work with any guys).
A few days every month I go through cycles where I just dont want to talk to anyone, including my parents. These feelings of lonliness is coupled to the fact that I have never had a gf or been on a date. Throughout my life I have attracted girls but they are doing so innapropriately (married) and I obviously dont allow anything to occur or they are attracted to me but dont want to pursue anything further. I try to keep my head up, I am in extremely good shape, healthy diet, have a strong education and a bright future but it doesnt make it easy when I am never given a chance and if im not working I am alone.
Im writing this because this past weekend was very unusual. I had been dreading going to my brothers wedding a few states away. Well the wedding turned out to be extremely good. I met this wonderful girl and we talked and danced all night and the night before the ceremony. Obviously I knew I had to go back home and that I would never see her again (she will be moving soon) but I got her number/email and said I would contact her to stay in touch. So I got back home yesterday night, back to the routine of being alone or working. I guess the huge difference from this weekend put things into perspective for me, the last time I went out was for my work christmas party. I think my defense mechanism is to totally consume my time with work to keep my mind off of the fact I have no social life.
Any advice?
Thank you