Having trouble sleeping because I feel stupid, going to vent on here so I can hopefully get some perspective (and sleep). I've wrote a previous post about how I've been dating this guy who I really liked, I haven't felt chemistry like it since my ex over a year ago which I think is the reason I've made excuses for him. He instantly came across as a player and was pushing sex quite heavily and some of the replies on here confirmed this. I promised myself I wouldn't talk to him after that but he keeps coming on stronger and I'm confused about whether he is actually interested. He's started ringing me instead of texting asking how my day is and I'll fall for him again, then on other days he'll take hours to text back. He'll tell me he's going to travel to see me and looks at me and kisses me like he adores me, then doesn't call back or is late to pick me up sometimes.
The other night he even offered to pick me and a friend up from out night out over 40 mins away then backed out an hour before because he was too tired and apologized. I promised myself (again) it was over and didn't text back. The following morning he rang me early (to apologize i was guessing) but I was busy and bluntly said I'd ring him later (for my apology) as i made excuses that he genuinely could have been tired. He text back understandingly like he actually felt bad. I rang him later and his phone was switched off.. he hasn't bothered getting back to me yet writes updates on twitter about Big Brother. Half of me thought he mustn't have been informed of my call to not ring back after not picking us up. I lost the plot and text him "Rang you before but your phone was turned off, don't know what happened to "speak later" but i'm going to bed.. night". He hasn't replied and I feel stupid and desperate for even bothering to text. I feel like if he isn't into me I could have at least kept my dignity and ignored him and if he is i've put him off, or he genuinely hasn't got my call and thought I was ignoring him.
After writing this out I'm a lot more clearer that he does just seem sketchy. I don't know why I'm so strung out on this guy who I know is bad news. To make it worse, a guy wants to take me out who is gorgeous and seems genuinely interested and I don't feel the same attraction.. what is wrong with me and how do I get over this guy for good?! I'm a bit more upset that I've ruined my dignity by sending that text and I should have just been classier and waited for his call to reject him instead of acting upset. Any supportive words would be nice x