I'll try to keep this from being too long. I'm pretty torn up about this. I'm 25 and have been dating my girlfriend for nearly 3 years. About a month ago, she left for a trip to another country to visit friends and just enjoy the travel experience. She gets back in mid-December. We were very much in love and frankly, I still love her so much. I guess that's why it hurts.
Yesterday, I saw a post on her facebook by a guy that said "Had an amazing night with you last night. I hope to see you again. xx" I saw this and thought, well.. maybe they just danced or something. But it was taken down about an hour later which I can only conclude she deleted it and didn't want me to see it. This made me kind of go "wtf?" I realized her facebook password was saved on my computer and I logged in. I really didn't do too much snooping, but the second message in her inbox was her messaging some French guy (a different guy than the previously mentioned), "I'm feeling very horny at this moment. I thought of you. wanted to say hello. Where are you right now?" He responded on how he was now in a different city and he was excited to meet again in a different city that they had planned on.
Now, I need to clarify that a few days ago, we were chatting and because the past month or two before she left we had been getting into some minor/small fights, we decided to break up until she got home and meet other people. She wanted to get back together when she got home though. So she has been in this other country for a month and we decided to do this via internet-chat a few days ago. That was just a few days ago though and this message was 10 days after her being in the other country. TEN DAYS. Almost 3 weeks before we "broke up." She was bawling before she left about how she would miss me. I feel so hurt and so betrayed. I don't think I can ever forgive her for this. This was the woman I wanted to spend my life with. I wanted to raise a family with her. I still love her and that's what hurts the most. How many other guys have there been? I know she's been going to the bars in this other country near every night. How many more guys will there be? How many guys did she sleep around with when she was here with me in town.
Before she left, she hid sticky notes all over my room proclaiming her undying love for me and how she wanted to grow old with me and how I was the best thing in her life. I'm staring at these now and I'm just speechless. I think I'm going to burn them.
A large part of me hopes she comes crying to me asking for forgiveness, but even if she does, I really don't think I could ever trust her again. What do you guys think? Am I overreacting because it was fairly close to us taking a break while she was out of town. I guess because we were supposedly still dating at the time, that's why I'm truly upset.