Hey guys, I have been skimming some threads and I really like this website, and to tell you the truth, its my way of "self-help"/therapy.
Background info:
Im male, 24. Dating my gf for a year, who is 18 almost 19. Im Asian/christian, she is european/muslim. Go to same school. My 2nd gf, and im her first bf.
Well Id like to start by saying that Ive grown up feeling insecure about many things. Up until my late teens, i really didnt know it would really effect me. But as I get older, I realize its a BIG issue, and need it to go away.
My gf is "gorgeous." To but it bluntly, she has the model look. I know I shouldnt put her on a pedastal, but i would be lying if I said i didnt feel lucky to have her.
Things for the most part have been good, but ive been getting really jealous lately. For example: there is this one boy who she had a crush on before me, and now she talks to him all the time (through webcam, facebook, etc...) He lives in a diff country, but I know if distnace wasnt an issue, they would most likely be dating.
Her phone also contains pictures of other guys with their shirts off showing off their abs and what not.
And shes even told me that Im not "typically her type"
I realize she is still young, as am I, so I do understand that.
Its just I have this urge to snoop her facebook. My fear ISNT that she is going to cheat on me. I trust her 100% there, as she constantly reassures me that shes never been so in love with me. My true FEAR is that someone who is better than me, aka someone who is her type, will sway her heart away towards him.
For the majority of our relationship- i never showed the slightest bit of jealousy, i even encouraged her to hang out with her guy friends, and flirting was fine as long as it was innocent. It just got so bad that at one point I confronted her about it. I didnt yell, but I just told her I was feeling jealous. (not sure if its a good idea since now this makes me look insecure and lacking confidence, which i know girls HATE).
Simply put- how do i regain my sack back. I feel like such a douche and such a loser for wasting my time and getting hurt over waht may potentially happen. I just wanna get better, cus these jealous thoughts are really hurting me, especially my sleep!
Any of you guys going through a similar situation?