first things first ... never lie ... to urself or her ... repeat NEVER LIE ...
why would write something that u did not feel ? there is a mch easier way of finding out what she meant ... asking her ! ...
i dont intend to be mean ... its just that i hate lying .
stop apologising ... when u meet her ... tell her the truth .. truth has amazing powers ... just tell her honestly what ur feelings are for each other .....
as to why she is acting like this ... suppose u had met this girl in the mean time and then she had texted u that she loves u .. what would u have felt? suppose she had buriied her feelings in the mean time about u and thought to herself that k .. he is my close friend thats all ... and then u text her that ? .....
then again it could be something else entirely ...
dude ... u have apologised more than enough ... when u meet her or talk to her .. tell her in all honestly what u feel and why u wrote what u wrote .. ok ..
of course whether u choose to do so .. is upto u
best of luck and i hope things work out for you
Hussain
Are there no prisons? Are there no workhouses? - The Ghost of Christmas Past