Ok, so my gf broke up with me on december 23 (great timing), told me that she didnt love anymore, i was lying in bed because i had surgery (rhinoplasty) and i was alone because my parents went to visit my sister in Germany. She was in her parents hometown visiting and when i called her she told me that she wanted to break up, i tried to beg for a while, spoke with her the next day on msn told her that i wanted to see her when she came back. etc...
Well that x-mas day I came to the sudden revelation that i wasn't going to try anything because she was just a cold selfish woman and that was it... so i didn't do anything. Well she began to ask her cousin about me, (what was I up to, etc) he told her that he couldn't speak with me because i was watching a movie, and she became enraged and asked many questions, (who was he with? at what time? etc), and she sent me a message at 1 am saying: its nice to know that u are better, i just couldn't hold myself, well just wanted to say hi.
A couple days later her cousin told me that she told him: "tell him to call me, but do it like is your thing", nevertheless he told me what she was trying so I didn't pay much attention, well finally i found out that the day we broke up she lied to me about what she was doing in the morning, she told me she was with her cousin in a pool, but actually she wasn't only with her cousin but some guys including one that is notorious for hitting on her.... I was mad, and i called her, and asked: who were u with that day??? and she said...my cousin.... and i said who else??? some friends... what friends...some friends...this guy was there right??? yes...., but i didn't tell u because i knew u were going to get mad...
So i said, u know what, don't try to contact me anymore, just leave me alone, i feel sorry for you, u are so dishonest and selfish.... and that was it... i didn't contact her anymore, i erased her from facebook, msn, my phone, everything.
Well a couple days ago, one of her friends began to chat with me... and i sensed that i was talking not with the friend but with my ex.... "reconsider everything, you don't know what she is going through.... u know u have to speak with her, she needs to clarify so much, don't close the door" and I said: "look I appreciate your words, but I'm 24 I have my own business and a job and i really don't have time to take care of kids"...."but she is suffering" she said, and i said "well, that isn't my fault she put herself in that position".
Anyway, a classmate of her added me in facebook two days ago, I added her because i knew she wasn't a close friend of my ex, so i said what the hell... well i spoke with her, she told me that she wasn't close with my ex, that actually she though my ex disliked her, but she liked me when she meet me...and finally she asked me out... wants to hang out this weekend or something...
Well, just 20 minutes after that, my ex tagged herself in a picture hugging her ex in a party, but the funny thing is that she tagged the classmate i just added as herself, so i could saw the damn pic, and all the comments: you look adorable, sparks flying and stuff like that.
And all this time apart she has been posting pics of her partying with all kinds of guys... maybe trying to make me react...i dunno. To be honest i was completely mad a couple moments ago, and i almost called her, but i preferred to write here... I know that maybe she will do things even worse, like going back with her ex...sigh... i feel sorry for the guy, she dumped him many years ago after cheating on him, and he still tries to be with her....
Sometimes i miss her...and i feel like going back with her... but she is so shallow and maybe shes just craving attention... but i loved her...maybe i still do, and she can affect me...
well that was it, sorry for my bad English.