I'm 25, young, and rather happy with my life. I've been with an amazing man for about 2.5 years now and my entire family loves him. I've even started day dreaming about the day he asks me to his... I know it sounds corny for a 25 year old to say, but it's true. We've touched on the topic of our future and I know he loves me and wants to get married one day. I couldn't be happier
Then there is Mike.
Mike I've known since I was 3. We have story-after-story of growing up together, living thousands of miles apart, but still have this chemistry. We've never dated, we've never kissed. We've always been friends. We have gone years without talking, and then someone will randomly call or text the other, we start up talking again and then it slowly fades away. Mike and I started just talking again within the last week or so... and it's happened again. I am in the clouds when we talk. We laugh. We flirt. We reminisce. We talk of our dreams and what we want to do with our lives. He supports me and I support him 100%. I consider him my best friend, because of anyone I know he will be the one that will drop the world if I needed him.
He's been with a girl about 2 years now as well, and in about 3 months he's getting married to her.
We talk mostly jokingly, but we go through these short conversations where he admits that he'll never love someone the way he loves me. I usually try to roll it off and just laugh it off. But it bothers me. The excitement I have to be around him is more than what I've had with any man... period. He's my best friend and I know I will always love him. Part of me is always going to be with him. And now I'm second guessing my relationship, and his, and why we've done this for years.
I'm scared. He's getting married. I'm getting close to the point where I'm expecting an engagement. But we both have fully admitted our love for each other, but nothing changes. I don't want to go to his wedding and watch him marry this great girl when I know part of my heart is with him and part of his with me. It's been about 1.5 years since we've seen each other (and yes that is normal for us). I almost feel like I need to find him one last time before he gets married and just say - is this what you want... because I need to know.
I don't want us to be happy and married 10 years down the road, but still have this regret we never gave "us" a chance.