I've had this girlfriend for 3 years. 1.5 of which is long distance (200 miles, i know, bad position). Well, the other night she accidentally called me at 2 in the morning and said as she was drunk with her friend going home, I Quote "Oh my god (the john doe) is such a good kisser! He was way better than (Me). Then she says later in the message "I love (john doe) so much I just wished he likes me too." (almost on the verge of crying) She then goes on about how they were dancing etc.
I confront her. At first i didn't know she said that he was a better kisser than me, but i uploaded audio on my computer and digitally cleared up everything and thats what i got. Now I asked her what she said i was better at before i knew what she was talking about and she said, "nothing". Then I found out, and she said that "she didn't mean it" that she was drunk talking to her friend and that she messed up by kissing him. I then ask her how it all happened. She wouldnt tell me, she said she was stupid and drunk and that it meant nothing even though "she loves him" and "he's better than me".
Now listen, i wont lie things get tempting in a long distance relationship. The point I'm trying to make is, I would of much preferred it if she had just kissed a guy, but it was a high school make out session apparently between two 20 year olds. I could've handled even that. But, This girl I've been with for three years, who i was madly in love with, just compared me to someone i have no idea who he is. I've never been this depressed in my life. I consider myself a strong person and that if anyone was to treat me this way, after years of loyalty, i would have the damn common sense to walk away. But it's not that easy.
As much as I want to really just kick this girl to the curb, and call her names, and say she's the spawn of satan, I can't. As much as I want to forgive her and look passed this incident, I can't because of the fact that she thinks someone else is better than me. She denies it to the end, will swear on the holy bible, and will kiss my feet to get back with me. I love this girl so much that I am confused and do not know what to do. I know with any situation, when people get emotional they can make bad decisions. But, I don't want to let pride get in the way of my heart. If I were reading this I'd tell me to kick this girl to the curb and go out like Magic Johnson, but I'm not in that position. It's so different when its you that its happening to.
For a final note, the only reason I am in a pickle is because she compared me to someone else. i Just felt truly betrayed and heartbroken. Please, can you send me a response in what you think I should do?