So here i go with my story
So i know a girl for about 3 years now. We were just friends, we both had a relationship. Me for almost a year and she for almost 2 years. Mine ended like about 1.5 years ago and hers almost 4 months. The guy she was with still wants her back and she really doesn't feel confortable when he is around. He didn't even tell his parents thet the relationship is over (and yeah im talking about now after 4 months). She told me once she didn't want to hurt him beceauce he is a good guy, but the relationship didn't work anymore. She also told me she really doesn't want to tell him if she would have a new relationship becaus the guy is still really jealous when she is around other guys and stuff. She shouldn't care that much but she does.
now with some background here comes the story
For the last weeks me and that girl are getting real close. We are becoming real good friends. We agreed on doing some stuff to fool our friends. The id was to let them believe we are in love but didn't have a relationship. It worked suprisingly good and all of our friends believe it. Now the weird part about it we didn't had to to anything special for it everything just came as it was.
Even when we are not around our friends (just the 2 of us) we do special stuff. eg. On a night she was at my place we were watching a movie and we were both on the couch. We were lying togheter and for some reason we started to caress eachother a bit it was sexual or anything just a bit on the hands, arms and belly.
Even tho she said to me she doesn't want a relationship, and she doesn't got any feelings towards me or something and she said she hopes i haven't got any feelings for her.
I'm getting kind of confused here, Why are we so close and do things "normal" friends don't, could there be more then friendship and is she supressing her feelings or am i just making things to difficult
i don't know that to do or think anymore
(sorry for my poor english)