Lost a friend, messed up a conversation

[Zehx]

I lost a good friend last week... I have tried not to let it bring me down, especially since i only talk to my girlfriend twice a week for about 40 mintutes because of our LDR. I like to be positive when her and I talk so its not miserable. However I brought it up and it ruined our conversation she went quiet and said sorry and acted sad the rest of the conversation even though I was still pretending to be happy and telling her dont worry about it really, and that I missed her.

She just continued acting sad, and when I would ask her whats wrong she would say nothing. It ruined it though and I really dont have anyone to tlak to about the loss of my friend because it ruins the conversations with the person closest to me, were to far away, i dont like opening up to my family, i like being seen as an emotional rock but it hurts, and this sucks. I feel like the last phone conversation i had with my girlfriend was terrible and im sure she feels the same way, so our relationship is now on the rocks and i lost my friend and am trying to distract myself but its not #@$@ working. This seriously sucks.

[lizzy_09]

However I brought it up and it ruined our conversation

What I would like to know is what did you brought up? I can't give you my perspective if I only got a half baked story.

[Bumble_bee]

Z did you have a friend pass away?

I do not want to assume so please clarify so we can understand how your feeling.

[lisalee.lf]

I guess you must be very sensitive guy, so does your gf.
For you two, it's very possible to hurt each other.

[Zehx]

Yeah, I just mentioned that I had lost a friend and that I was a little down about it and something like that. However I didn't change my voice or anything and stayed sounding happy. However she did, she changed from happy to sad. I asked her at least 3 times if somethign was wrong and she said no, no, and wouldn't laugh at any jokes I tried to make about us.

To make the conversation light, for example I told her i "really really like her" which is an inside joke of how we were talking to each other before we said I love you, and then told her it was her fault for just not being brave enough to tell me she loved me in the first place instead of making me do it, joking 100%. She just responded annoyed, saying "omg now your keeping score of who says what first?". I was like, "no I was trying to be funny, I guess I wasnt".

man life sucks right now, the only person i thought I could talk to about this made it worse and seems upset now. hell.

[Bumble_bee]

well its a bit strange to be down one moment then be cracking jokes the next, she was perhaps confused, and didn't know how to take what you were saying. when you say you lost a friend, how, an arguement or something? why was she all sad about it...if you know this then you will work out why she was took what you said all wrong.

[lm311]

Maybe she is worried about you. If you live very far, she may feel like she needs to be taking better care of you and be there for you when you lose a friend. Maybe she could tell that you really were upset as well and was upset because she knew you were.