i have Never done something like this but i feel i need another's person's perspective on things. i met my boyfriend in September 2011 at school. i was 18 he was 23. we started going out earlier next year when i also found out he was "divorced" and had two kids. i was okay with that. as time when on he told me the divorce wasn't finalized but it was on the process. we were still getting to know each other so that was fine. for all 2012 everything was great. early January 2013 i had an abortion. worst mistake in my life but it happened. i was total B**** as i wasn't prepared for it emotionally. he "tried" being there for me but after 5 months of my attitude he wanted his space. i tried giving it to him. this was all of summer 2013 until September. later i found out he had been talking to a girl. i was logged in into his email (HE logged on to it on my phone and never logged out) well i got these Google chats and he was calling her "love" and "babe" and told her he wanted her physically and emotionally. i called him and we almost broke up but we didnt. then later he said he just "needed her" for tutoring in math. he stopped talking to her after summer classes were over. then i came across a picture on his phone of his ex sitting on his lap. i broke up with him then let it go and got back with him. i later saw his future ex wife's instagram where i found pictures of them hanging out with the kids. and i broke down. he knew i wasnt okay with that and he had promised me twice before it wouldn't happen. but it did. he bought her ugg boots and an ipad air for her birthday and took her and the kids to Disneyland for Christmas which i told him i wasn't okay with since he asked me if he could. then i came across a picture of them kissing. he cheated on me. i found all this out in February and i've been a total B**** with him ever since. he has experienced things h said he was going to experience with me, with her, while we have been in a relationship. he's apologized and told me he'd never lie to me and that he loves me and wants to spend the rest of his life with me. hes looking for a lawyer to put in his side of the divorce because his ex's lawyer is taking so long. keep in mind we have had a lot of problems because he is still married to his ex. he told me he has been acting very arrogant and should have finalized the divorce a long time ago. i still haven't met his children and his mom doesn't want me going over until he ends things completely with his ex. i want to move forward with him, but i don't know how to. should i even try? i've hurt him with what i say but never betrayed him with another person. he tells me i am stuck in the past because i bring it up so much. any advice?