I 'had' a friend who I loved for long time, I expressed my feelings few months and she wasn't interesting in me because I'm not her type then I happened to forced myself to ask her how am I not her type and she wasn't being reasonable then somehow, I did really stupid to put pressure on her and she got mad and said "I hate your because you're ugly, prevert, and you're not my friend anymore because you put too much pressure and you kept flirting, staring at me everytime I tried to tell you stop and you didn't listen and now, jerk!" then I was like oh my god, I was so stupid then I tried to make it up and she said she wont never forgive me and befriend with me 'forever' then I was told by someone that she won't befriend with me because she think I'll fall for her again then I became so depressed and I really hate myself so much that I have done very stupid thing in my entire life and I tried to apologized and everything and still, she won't forgive me.. I wish I never done all that and should have accept the fact that I'm not her type.. Will you please help me or give me any advices to solve or make it up to the problems because I really truly love her that ever happen first time in my life that you couldn't have imagine. I would be greatly appericate if anyone willing to help me out.