How can I forgive myself for loving this person

[DepressedSad]

He is a complete sociopath and liar.. What is wrong with me falling in love with someone like this? He's treated me terribly, yet I eat it up each time he tells me he loves me.

I finally decided I've had enough, I just can't take anymore of it, he'll never be true to only me. but now I feel like the wind has been knocked out of me without him, and I've been deeply depressed and anxious for a month now, even on antidepressants, I still feel like this.

I have nothing to hope for, no promise of new love. and I can't understand how I could fall in love with such a monster, what is wrong with me? No one with sense falls in love with a person like that.

Sorry for venting, I just don't know what to do.

[vashti]

No one plans to fall in love with a bad man. You don't choose who you love, but you CAN choose how you behave. No one can tell you how long you will grieve; a lot depends on how much attention you pay to your feelings. You might want to think about seeking some professional help - not so much to "get over" this guy, but to help you learn how to avoid his type in the future.

[lowesick]

this has also happened to me.. n i know how painful it is when you truly and so desperately wish to turn back time.. but it won't.. it will never..