Ok, here's a long boring story.
So I met this girl probably a year and a half ago, and we became pretty good friends. Infact, I'd have to say she has been one of my closest friends for about a year.
Well, I guess I've always been interested in her a little, but I never really did much about it because we've been friends and only friends, so I guess I just forced myself to think of her that way.
She feels the same way, I think.
Last week I was drunk and we were talking about her asshole ex-boyfriend. Aside from reminding her what an ass he was, I told her I liked her, she told me that she used to like me, but she forced herself to think of me as just a friend. I guess I already knew that she liked me, and she knew that I liked her, even before I said anything.
Alright, well two days ago we were both hanging with a group of friends, and I was making the comment that everyone I've ever liked has liked me back, but almost never at the same time. I have horrible timing.
Anyways, me and her were in the backseat of a car and she knew I was talking about her when I said I had horrible timing.
and I'm like "Damn my horrible timing."
she said "It's not as bad as you think."
and I said "What does that mean."
she says "Exactly what you think it means."
and I say "Then it's OK for me to be really happy right now." and I put my arm around her.
(whatever, I'm lame, I dont write romance novels)
Which is the most I've ever indicated I liked her since I've known her.
Anyways, when 5:00am came around I had to leave, even though I really really didn't want to.
I kissed her before she got in her car, and I'm not gonna lie, it made my day.
It also made me a bit nervous as to how things would be afterwards.
She told my best friend she kissed me.
he asked how it was and she said "It was good, but it's Joe."
I guess I understand what she means... we've been only friends for so long.
OK, so that was a few days ago. Since then, we've been hanging out like... more than we used to... and we've been having alot of fun. Things haven't been awkward either, thank god.
But I have no idea what she wants or what I want. I think I'd like to have some sort of relationship with her... I think about it all the time now. But I don't know what she really wants, and it seems like even after things hapened, we just ended up almost where we were before...
In August, she's going away to college on the exact furthest point in the country from me.
I was thinking about it last night and I was almost crying.
It sucks.
I dont know what to do. It sucks. Pretty bad. But I think it could be good...