I went to a basketball game last night. I met up with a friend of mine, whose house just recently burnt down. I sat the whole game with her and a guy friend of mine.
I think I am starting to like her... and I think she wants to ask me out.
I couldn't stop checking out girls on the court. I kept doing it, and I told myself to stop, and that it wasn't right, but as simple as it sounds, I couldn't.
I feel like I am still in love with the other girl. Secretly, we are still going out, so it would be wrong for me to think sexually of other women or anything... I don't want to hurt her.
But today, I was standing in the hall next to my friend Ashley, and my girlfriend walks straight past me, doesn't even look at me, and says "Hey Ashley!"
nonetheless, I walked away.
I saw her drive downtown, while I was doing errands for my boss. I curiously followed her, to see what she was doing. She parked at a tanning salon. This disappointed me for two reasons. One, she is obsessed with how she looks, and it is more attractive to me when a woman doesn't give a damn. Two, she could've swung by the news office and said hello, or call me, because she does have her phone.
I know... stalker is the name, but I am starting to not give a **** anymore. I am noticing many things about her that I would consider very self-centered, and I don't like it. She doesn't try to get her parents' acceptance of our love because she is afraid she will get grounded... for **** sake. I would take that risk.. maybe she doesn't love me.
I don't know what to do, who to talk to, who to trust, where to go, what to say, how to feel, or anything. So I am referring to my loveforum friends.