My exboyfriend was never truly happy to be with me(his words)m because he was to into flirting and I really hate it and told him to stop. Also I am a virgin who is not ready for sex and he is a very very sensual person! I feel the longer I am with him, the more he suffers We kept dragging it for too long because we kept running back to each other every time when we broke up.
I asked him how much he is suffering from a scale 1-10 with 10 being most. He said 5. I was devastated. When he gave me the number 5, I knew we have to separate. But I know he had difficulty to move on from me, so I came up with this stupid idea that I will be super mean to him to scare him away. So I was online goggling how to act in a not reasonable way. I was swearing at him, I told him to sleep on the floor, I asked him to email his exgirlfriends to scold at them, I asked him not to go on a camping trip, etc. One day I was talking this with a male friend, he told me threatening him that I will kill myself will DEFINITELY scare him away. Then I think if it can make him move on from me and find a girl who can accept him (whom he can have sex with at least). So after I tried to act in a mean way, he is now scared of me and locks himself at his room. I knocked on his door to ask him for MY house key he refused to reply, and didn't open the door (I think he lost it). And he's skipping work for three days now, ignoring my calls, etc.
This should be the consequence I want, I think the more he hates me the better, the sooner he can find someone else, but I don't know why I am still sad over all this.
I am just so dumb!