I totally hate my job...

[LadieNisha4u2nv]

...and I am writing my resignation letter tonight.

I have been saying this for quite a while now, but this is the first time that I woke up the next morning and still felt the same way....as a matter of fact, worse.

There's alot of comparison between me and this other girl there. I seriously hate when you compare one's pregnancy to the other, especially when the other doesnt do shit except sit down all day for 8 hours and get paid for it.

It annoys me even more when they constantly talk about firing me over being sick and not coming in to work for it and when the other girl does it she doesnt get the shitty end of the stick.

This has gotten so ridiculous and has made me feel ultra stressed out lately. I am not happy no matter where I am. I'm actually back to my suicidal thoughts. The pregnancy is horrible and my job makes it no better. I recently started getting cramps in my calves like it tightens up and it is reeeaaallllllllyyyy bad. I prefer labor pains to that shit.

I feel like Im stuck between a rock and a hard place, because not having my own money could be a problem for me.....but I rather be broke and living. I dont like thinking about suicide. It's such a messed up feeling. I feel like no one understands me and like my job is against me. Like once I'm not making them money it's like to hell with me and my health. They contradict themselves so much that it drives me crazy. I'm so tired of their bullshit. It stresses me out so much because I am not the type to get confrontational and yell at people when they use me. I just swallow my pride and let them walk all over me. I feel weak for that and not knowing how to be strong stresses me out too.

When I stand up for myself, I end up crying, even out of anger. I HATE that about myself. I'm really soft and I dont even know how to change that. I just wish I was more outspoken and let them know what's on my mind.

But eh....Idk....I want to "man up" and stop letting people walk all over me. I really dont like being such a weakling.

Any suggestions?

[misombra]

are you eating well? like, proper nutrition and all that?

[LadieNisha4u2nv]

Eh....not really. I barely even eat and that's because I'm rarely ever hungry. I drink Nutrament all the time. It's like food in drink form. It's the only thing I can stomach next to water. They're all I ever really have.

[misombra]

well, that's probably why you're feeling so bad. you should take some vitamin supplements. drink some milk. i feel like SHIT if i don't get all my nutrients for the day.

[LadieNisha4u2nv]

Ooooo congrats!

Idk if you know what nutrament is but it's a milky drink with a bunch of different nutrients/vitamins in it. It makes me feel really good when I drink it, as well as water.

Everything else I have makes me feel worse than before.

Another thing making me feel better is a hot bath. I wish I had a jacuzzi...I'd sit in that shit alllll day!

What's your opinion on my job though?

[misombra]

can you afford to quit?

[LadieNisha4u2nv]

I can....but for how long is the thing.

[misombra]

well it all depends on how you can swing it. i don't really know your situation that well.

[Cbrider]

You will more than likely have one hell of a time landing another job if you leave the one you're at. It's extremely difficult to land anything atm, and you basically have to know someone on the inside to have a shot.

A shake that is "food in a shake form" is not the same as solid food. I can tell you that for me, the only reason I drink liquid anything is because it doesn't cause me to be ridiculously hungry 3 hours later. Solid food will make you feel a lot better than a liquid I think. Stay away from anything processed if you can, natural food will completely overhaul your body as far as how you feel.

You may hate your job, I have been in that position. If you leave, honestly, plan on 6 months of unemployment to be safe. That is a realistic figure on the mainland atm. If you're worried about termination, keep notes and records of things you are reprimanded for, that way you have a log if it gets nasty.

I got let go from my job back in May, but I was smarter than they assumed I guess. I started keeping track when the economy turned because you couldn't really trust your employer. Turns out they didn't have a probable cause to fire me, but they could end my contract whenever because Idaho isn't a right to work state. Long story short, I shoved it in their face over it and the labor department ruled in my favor. I got a free ride on unemployment because I did my homework and guess who was paying it?

You really have to watch your back when the business world boat starts rocking.

[AdminOnline]

Majority of the people don't work in the field they like... so it's normal.
It's the money we need to survive & feed us..

if you do working in the field you like, congrat.

[SammyLC]

It sounds as though you are frustrated and angry about the way you're treated and so need some compassion and understanding regarding your health. Rather than feeling like a weakling - the only way to feel empowered is to take action. The loudest and brashest voice does not necessarily get results. Can you approach your Union or take a grieveince against your employere for unfair treatment due to your pregnancy. What are your employment rights? - check this over. Secondly, if you have saved and have enough money to live on even in the short term - after the baby's born take time out and plan what you would like to do with your life. Ask yourself where does your heart lie? what's your passion? what are you good at? Thirdly, allowing yourself to be stressed is no good for you nor your baby. He/she needs you right now so let your baby be the catalyst to help you uphold your rights at work and pursue justice. Don't leave the workplace until you have studied your rights as an employee. Just remember - you are not as weak as you think you are. Inside, you have inner reserves of strength. When stressed take deep breaths and count to ten. If you would like to receive help from me please contact me as I am a Qualified Life Coach. SammyLC

[Charlie Boy II]

Wise words LA. Wise words.

[Bumble_bee]

when it is having an effect on your well being, I can totally see why you feel like this. Have you discussed this with your SO? what does he think?, also do you get maternity pay if you quit?

putting yourself first is important, you're already having a tough pregnancy, and you dnt need this crap to top it off making you feel so bad.....weigh it all up, talk to family for some support and hopefully you can work something out in terms of finances, budget etc....I'd say go for it......

[vashti]

If you are unable to perform you work duties because you are too sick due to pregnancy, maybe you should just ask for some time off until after the baby comes. This way, you aren't jeopardizing your work reputation, and won't have to worry about not having a job later, when you WILL need the money.

[LadieNisha4u2nv]

Everyone's been telling me not to give in yet because I will be on maternity leave from November 20th; two weeks unpaid and the rest paid but not my full check. The reason it's so early is because I have to get rid of any extra personal time I have in order for short term disability to kick in, hence the 2 weeks of no pay.

I still feel like quitting, but it's not as strong as before. I wouldn't want the financial burden on my b/f because I personally think it would make him resent me quitting.

I know I will regret quitting if I do. Being broke doesn't feel good.

We applied for a loan and got turned down three times so far, and I don't want to try anywhere else because I dont really like rejection. Just brings down my mood and makes me more depressed. I'm back at square one with all the necessities for this baby and now it's like saving from scratch because the money we do have saved up is for a car, which is also very necessary.

So....I'm sticking it out until time for maternity leave.

If they fire me, I have a damn good case against them IMO. The policy states that if we are sick we are supposed to stay home yet they are constantly on my ass about being sick and not coming to work. They told me if I am not feeling well they can not force me to stay, but they do it all the time. They are now considering letting me go because I am sick alot, which is what i would think someone with common sense would expect from a pregnant woman.

They also constantly compare me to another pregnant woman at the job who does worse than me but she never gets warned about not showing up for being sick.

There's no way in hell I could lose this case once we are talking about being treated fairly. I believe that they think since I am quiet and non-confrontational that I wouldn't go to the department of labor for them. I'm not that crazy.

Only thing I'm worried about is how the system works in the world. It's like if you dont know people you wont get shit. I've already realized how ****ed up the real world is.

Right now...I'm just worried about money. I dont mind wearing the same clothes over and over again until my kids are well off clothing and food wise, and they have all their other many necessities. It's gonna be a hard time for me to cope with...but I am trying very hard to be strong. I refuse to let this fully break me down into pieces. I just can't let them win.