Anyway so i been seein that girl at most a week, she actually told me she was in love with me, although she is 27 i doubt she knows what love is, or maybe shes desperate to fill the void she has since she decided to divorce her husband..i know for a fact i COULD but am not ready to take on 4 kids and another person financially, or mentally..She acts like im the bad guy because im not in love with her already, granted we have spent alot of time together- its not that easy for me to let someone in..and i think shes somewhat confused, anyway she got mad at me because of a joke i made.. and decided we were done..now this is fine with me- i knew it would end that way sooner or later anyway cause i just am not ready for that kind of relationship right now..but Shes so hurt by me, and angry at me, and i didnt really do anything..so i dont love her..so what- she says i used her for sex..which i didnt, if that was the case why would i have stayed after we ****ed and held her so she could go to sleep (shes an insomniac kindof, she doesnt really sleep mostof the time but she can when someone is holding her)
Anyway i dont really feel bad cause i know ive done nothing wrong..and she was the one who was using me..But i dont know if i should completely cut her off (after she has said some ****ed up things to me) or if i should try to be there for her, because shes going to a rough time- granted i have NO loyalty to someone ive only known that long, for me to be loyal to someone i hafto trust them, and hafto have been through shit with them..and only years of knowing someone can create that for me.. but anyway- any thoughts? am i wrong because i dont feel everything she does?