Hey everyone.
It's kind of a long story, some things might not seem believable but come on, I'm from India.
I met this girl, she's a junior in my college. The date was 4th January 2017.
I was standing with some 5-6 people, and I saw her with a friend of mine, they came out to eat something. I was attracted to her. The friend came to greet me, and she found me blushing (dont judge ok? There are many moments to come :p)
She introduced us and we started talking.
Guess what was on 7th January? My birthday!
So I invited her, and she came. So, we all were chilling, I was drunk and all. I realized I am screwed. The moment I reached home, I started thinking about her. Haven't stopped yet.
So, we talked and talked for a month.
14th Feb 2017, I get to know that she said yes to some guy who proposed her. So what would I do? I acted like i was okay. But she was getting everything. Then i confessed and she said she knew all the way. Then something happened and we stopped talking. For 6 months. I missed her everyday but didn't text her because she was happy with the guy and I didn't want to bother her anymore.
One day, 21st October 2017,i got a text from her. It was diwali (the festival). I got to know she's pretty messed up, she had broken up with the guy because he was cheating on her.
So I got attached again. This time, a lot more than before, because come on I love her.
We haven't met in a very long time till now.
So I get a call from her in November. She was crying a lot. I asked her, she told me that she had been given a year back in college (she had to repeat a whole year because she couldn't meet the attendance criteria)
So I consoled her and told her, that I'll help you fix it
Okay so we talked to the authorities. No one listened. So we had to opt for a backdoor, and it involved a lot of money. Her parents don't know about it till date.
She doesn't earn, so I helped her. And it was a lot of money. (like you could buy a you could buy a prius with that kind of money.and I'm also a student, freelancing as a design consultant)
So I did everything I could. It's been 7 months trying, and today, it's all clear. She has resumed her classes.
Now, I am way more attached to her. And I talk about my feelings more often
But, everytime, I get some reason. Like:
"can't two people be friends and be happy that they have each other?"
"I don't feel for you. I have tried, give it time"
And more
I know I sound like a loser begging for her attention, but am I wrong if I tell her how i feel?
I know she cares about me.
I am getting restless. I don't know what to do.
Should I stop? Should I just walk away from her life?