Well definitely thats not my question but its the 2 factors revolving around it
Me and my Girl had been together for 1 1/2 year already, we met up while I was stuck on a dark moment of my life and treated her as an angel eversince, we also had a lot of challenges and controversies when we became togehter and both of us successfully have gone thru it...Heres the thing
We're here on the Philippines and as some of you know,most Filipinos wants to live the american dream of earning big and help support their families here.As a registered nurse that is her goal but as of the moment getting there thru the normal process aint as easy as before,specially the demands of hospitals for nurses declined.
Her sister who lives in the US suggested for her to go thru a fix marriage with this guy and she is very much open to it, She explained to me of course that they would just be bound by papers for 2 years then divorce can come in (you know the stuff)...My issue is that It seems taht I cant force her to change her mind, for me this is in the borderline of being immoral and wrong and of course I want her first and only marriage is to be with me, she keeps on explaining that going to the US was her main goal why she even studied nursing,plus the fact that the job will support her family here.
We have argued about this a lot of times already and seriously I truly am hurting inside, admittedly when I cry about this she states her annoyance already and stating that she would rather be proud of me If I show her to keep being strong and struggle about the situation...that I show her some backbone. I asked her if it would be best if we broke up and she always replies "I dont know" sometimes "she doesnt want to leave me"
Impregnating her of course came to my mind as an idea but Im not foolish enough to do it and hear from her the regrets she has that she wasnt able to live her dreams...I want her to be happy and to attain her dreams but I dont want to lose her as well....She's younger than me by 5 years
Im also expecting that because of this soon we might go our seperate ways already but Im not ready for it or I dont know if I can take it...
The fact that I experienced a failed long distance relationship before makes me not to trust or go through as well
I dont really give out part of my life publicly,especially here on the interwebs but I honestly need support and your encouragement that I can stand again after this..