sob... my fren has found his special someone.. i know this day will come.. but when it finally comes, my heart still feels the pinch, no matter how prepared i am.
he proclaims his love for her on the msn. all his msn contacts can read his msg.. got to admire his courage. he said he'll love her v much.. does he stand a chance? he asked her. i dun know the girl's response. and i don't wanna know.
why am i always the one suffering in all aspects of life? be it love, career, social life, family.. i know its due to my lack of self-confidence. not enough inner faith in myself.. any small matter will trigger my self-doubt.. is it because of me? did i cause this problem? did i upset my boss? have i offended him? is he upset with me? first things in my head are always negtive thoughts.
i really like this guy.. ironically.. bump into his public moment of proclaiming love to another gal on msn.. is god sending some signals to me? that i should finally let go?
maybe i should strike him completely off my frends list... to start afresh. keep bouncing on him juz aches my heart.
i think im going crazy. fear of rejection.. fear of uncertainty.. i feel like crying. my life is a failure. can someone help me?