So I am desperate and in love. My girlfriend and I of almost 3 years now have had some issues. One of them being that I have a much stronger sex drive than she does.The main one being a 4-5 year age difference and she has always been ready for marriage and kids when I was not(i;m younger). But I love her to death and have been working towards getting to that point as well. Recently the issue arose again and she told me to leave. Around this same time I dont know what happened to me but I ended up going for a few happy ending massages and actually had sex with 2 prostitutes. I am completely ashamed and it is not who I am. I've never done these things before. I also signed on to a adult site where people meet but I never met anyone and quickly realized I was acting out of fear and stupidity so I cancelled my membership. All of this happened withn a 2 week period of time. I quickly stopped and regret it deeply.I never had true intentions of leaving her. I LOVE HER!!! However my girlfriend saw the emails from the site and threw me out completely. I never told her about the happy endings or sexual encounters. I am desperately trying to save us. I know if I tell her about the sex that was simply a bad move and purely sexual I will never see her again. If she takes me back should I ever tell her about those things?? I want to marry this girl. I am completely in love with her.