i decided while my boyfriend was out to look through is old facebook messages to see what I could find out about his past that he hasn't told me.
well i knew what to expect but didn't think i would be disgusted and sickened. he told me when we first started dating (a month shy of a year ago) that he used to be a really bad "man whore" and i didn't fully believe him. well i found out today he was being very serious. he manipulated girls into thinking he loved them and wanted to spend the rest of his life with them. of course as i'm reading i see the same things that he said to them were the same things he has said and still does say to me. although i am the only girlfriend that he has had that he bought a promise ring for. and i figure that's a sign that he really means it.
it really sucks. reading all of this garbage that he said to these girls. most of whom live out of state. and it appeared to be a nothing more than an online relationship. but some were disturbing. because when he was 19 he was seeing a girl who was 14. which i told him before that made me really uneasy.
i'm not going to dump him for his past. but it's just unsettling. especially when i know he's slept with 18 females. not including me. which i knew before we got together. but everything we've been through together makes me think he's really going to stick by me no matter what. he's told me that since we've been together that he has been through more shit than with any other female. and if it was any other female he would've never signed on but he stays because he loves me.
i just really needed to get that off of my chest.
thanks for reading