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[outlawstar]

hello i am an almost 18 yr old male...im involved with a much older woman (shes 49) and while she is exciting, intelligent, and usually loving and understanding she has another side which is very vindictive, and just plain nasty...i need advice bad because i dont know whether to stay in the relationship or if its going to end up hurting me badly...shes very into sex with me...well she was...until the other night...we were on the phone and i had showed her a porno video (emailed it to her) she was very excited yet didnt know if she wanted to view it ...she opened it and couldnt get enuff...she proceeded to want to have phone sex (weve done this many times) we will talk turn eachother on and cum..i always take my time and try to please her...we do this becuz its hard for us to be togther till im 18 and can move in with her and becuz we love eachother...anyway after i was satisfied she said she had also cum...but still seemed into it so i tried to satisfy her by talking...after a few mins. she said to be quiet and proceeded to please herself with me listening...i thought she had cum at least twice and after about 15-20 mins. i didnt know what to do so i sat there and listened..i felt kinda left out...she stopped and said something about getting a sex toy to use and i replied that i had wanted to talk to her too tonite so i hope we can talk too she got mad stopped and got real nasty i said im sorry i thought u had cum already ...she finally admits later it takes her an hour to cum and that she usually just fakes it and pleases me and is sick of it...i felt so bad...i kept tellin her lets do it agian she wouldnt...now she says forget sex at all with me that she is going back in her shell she was in for 10 yrs and i am just like every other man...she threw the video away and wont mention sex with me at all now...she said i took something from her...i violated her...that i humiliated her...she doesnt know if she can get it back...then last nite we were on phone...i mentioned that i noticed in a paper she wrote and showed to me that she had put the letter "S" on the end of abortion...in effect abortions....i said i thought u only had one but u had more didnt u...i thought we could talk about it..i dont hold it against her i just wanna bond becuz i have told her all my baggage and stuff in my life all of it...she said dont assume..sharing things with u is my choice and i choose not to...then she quoted all this psychology stuff...i said im sorry i just asked a question tahst it we can drop it....she said fine drop it ...i start tellin her about a show i was watchin i was getitn into it and she breaks me off and says u drink too much and i cant live with a drunk...so what are u gonna do about it...and on and on...we talk about it and she trashes me...i said id try to be better...then later on she starts screaming at me saying that its my problem i shared with her and starts repeating victims rights to me...like some kinda robot...then saying she has th eright to feel safe...im like calm down...she wouldnt stop abusing with words...and i said i am so sick of u and called her a ***** and hung up the phone..i feel like she verbally abuses me but she says its me...today we talk about what happened last nite... she said well damien u wanted to talk about DEEP FEELINGS and PROBLEMS so thats what we did ...except we did it about YOURS...and u dont like that do u??? she is nasty to me and i repeat stuff back to her to show her how it feels and then she says dont compete with me! u fight like a woman...and she quotes psychology to me all nite long on instant message and says whatever she likes about me and then when i defend myself she screams THIS ISNT ABOUT U ITS ABOUT ME...she says things are always about ME...i told her i was sorry for calling her the B word..she didnt say sorry for doing anything ..i kept tellin her im sorry and then she brought up the sex thing i said sorry for that too and how much i love her and will make it up to her...she said to me "men should be taught to apologize becuz u suck at it"...i felt so stupid after she said that...is she purposely trying to hurt me..she is nice and then all of sudden mean.....i said u know it was mean when u interrupted my story last nite..she goes MEAN? thats a childish word..she said we had more important things to discuss other than that stupid show and seeing as how i wanted to discuss HER pain she thought shed bring up mine....she picks at everything i say...then tonite as i had to go do homework i said can we talk tonite and meet back here around 10pm...she said yeah do ur work take ur time school is important...i said aright..then she types aright...i said ok see u later...she types same thing as me...then i said why are u copying what i say...she types and sends it back...she wouldnt stop...to be honest it scared me i started to shake....i wondered if shes crazy...isnt that just bizarre? i do love her and lots of times she makes me feel good becuz she loves me.... i feel she is hateful to me half the time and hates men....is it just me ...i never hurt her on purpose but i feel she does that to me....what do u think? i really need advice bad as i cant talk about this with family and dont really have friends....any advice would be very appreciated...thank u so much...Damien

[Junket]

Hey, how about you post another copy in your ass.

[mhussain]

hi outlawstar ...

i think u have another copy posted in abnother section....

although the way frasbee puts it is not subtle (no offence frasbee) but he is right ...

try and put paragraphs and spaces .. makes it easier to read .. which i see that u have already done in ur other post ... i think...

if u dont .. people just skip over it and wont reply...

Hussain

[Only-virgins]

I read the first couple of sentences and I must say I am freaked out. She is 49?...you are "almost" 18? ...wtf?. Can you please leave the senior citizens alone? jeez!

[Promise]

A 49 year old woman shouldn't be involved intimately with someone 18. If anything, the only involvement a 49 year old woman has to a 18 year old male is motherhood. I apologise, but I read your post, ignoring the grammer, and I find everything quite disturbing. You need to seriously talk to your parents about this, as it's no longer a question of if...

[stonesnbones]

49 year old could definately go to jail for this if you arent even 18 yet

[artyemi]

stay away from her outlaw.. she's too much for you and too crazy..

[RuntimeError]

49 and 18, this leads me to think that both of you are in need of some serious attention maybe it is just phsycal, you being 18 horney as hell at your sexual peak and her being 49 and and rude as hell probably hasn't been laid in quite afew years if ever, that is why you make a good match. Now as it says in one of my favorite songs. "Lick it, split it, Hit it, Forget it, Let the ho go so the next joe can hit it" now I don't know about the lick it she is 49 but the rest is pretty good advice. Give your self some credit you are 18, maybe you have never had a girl friend that is why you chose this gizzer babe. Although there are some hot gizzer babes, your 18 you can get better and you have something worse if she was a nice gizzer babe that would be one thing but she is a "MEAN" gizzer babe which is one of the worst and scary combinations out there. Man, that gives me nightmares a "MEAN" gizzer.

[shh!]

OY! I can't even read this - way too long and no paragraphs. Please summarize in the future. :-)

However, based on the replies I've read, I am surprised a 49 year old woman would have anything in common at all with an 18 year old, so if you are imagining you are in a "relationship" with her, I'd guess you are reading more into than she is (unless she is mentally ill). I hope you are at least getting paid because you sound like a gigilo. Oh, and if she is cranky, it is probably menopause.