Okay guys, here's the deal.
In March, my boyfriend moved away to study in another country. He broke up with me because of the distance and time period, stating that he still wanted to be with me in future but, for now, we needed to let each other go but still talk to each other. I was devastated as I loved, and still love him very much. I hated the thought of him being physical with other women. I don't know if he has been in the time he's been away, but he said it was possible he might do. However, he said he would still love me throughout and would be back to me in the future.
For months I've been trying to get over it. We're still very good friends and speak every day online, and I am flying out to visit him this week, and I'm very much looking forward to that. He says he still loves me and misses me. However, last night, I went out to a party, got unusually drunk and ended up kissing some random guy. It didn't mean anything, and it's still my boyfriend I love, and I know he broke it off with ME, but for some reason, I still feel guilty. I know there's a chance he could have done the same or more with other women over there. I've wondered if I should tell him when I visit him, or whether it's best left private.
Any advice? Please don't tell me I shouldn't be friends with him as his friendship means a lot to me, and we have been through a lot together. I never want to lose that, whatever the circumstances.
Thanks