Feel like I'm stuck in an unhappy engagement

[Crescendoll]

So after going into the friend zone, I dated this guy Ed for about 6 months and we became engaged. It's been about 2 months since and I feel so unhappy. I used to be a model and I had my own place, lots of friends, and was having a lot of fun with my new independence ever since moving out of my parent's house. When we started dating I gave up my modeling, which was a huge passion for me, because Ed didn't feel comfortable with that line of work. I understood and was willing to give it up for him. Soon after I couldn't find a "normal job" and so I lost my place and moved in with him and his parents.

Without a car or my own place, I feel so trapped. Now I feel like I've turned into Ed's new mother because I feel so insecure about having to depend on him so much for food, a place, and rides to anywhere. I cook all the time and clean his room, but anytime I ask for help he gets on my case saying "just don't do it, I never asked you to. Let my mom do it." this guy, no joke, has never done laundry nor washed a damn dish in his life. I am a very independent person by nature and so to see someone so lazy is really a turn off.

The sex life at first was great, it was fun and kinky. He liked being the dominant one and I really liked that. But here's the thing, he feels like if he can't be a demanding and dominating person to me in real life, then he can't in the bedroom. For example, he is so over protective I can't even sleep over at my girl friend's places anymore. When I told him that bugged me, he made me look like the bad guy by getting all sad and depressed and said "fine, I won't be dominating anymore. Not even with sex."

I am getting to my breaking point. My girl friend wants to get a place with me and I really want to do it as soon as I have another job. I may even go back into modeling, without Ed knowing. I know he'll have a crazy fit if I move out but I am so depressed. I need independence. Ed's place is in a way sketchy area so I can't even walk outside, let alone take a bus to go hang with friends or go shopping by myself. I miss being able to do something as simple as taking a walk. I just sit inside all day while he goes to school and has a normal life.

I thought I could put up with it for a while so I could save money and finish school, but I don't know of I can. Is it worth postponing my college education?
How do I get out? I used to be so strong but I feel like I lost my fierceness and will to do something great with my life. Should I give Ed another chance if I move out? I don't feel like myself anymore, I feel so numb.

[HeartIsAching]

Oh geez.

[searock]

You should run and forget about him, not necessarily because you deserve better: you two are just incompatible.

[dnna1]

I feel you should forget him, forget it

[John12]

Mentality: better