Been out of the game for about 5 years. Its irrelevant, but i experienced a traumatic event in my last relationship caused by outside forces. I put up a bunch of "walls" to avoid being hurt again and as a result talk myself out of everything constantly.
I recently was approached by a gorgeous woman within a year of my age. I couldn't turn her down.We went out for drinks that night with her friend(plus date) and had a great time. She was pretty progressive with kissing and exchanging contact info(basically within a couple hours of meeting). For me, this is like a surreal experience. It had literally been years since I kissed a girl and that feeling is so nice(feels right), in addition to having a new promising "prospect".
She texts me an hour after we say goodnight saying i should find her on fb. I respond the next day because I was sleeping, that I would and it was great meeting her. I had been out of town for work for a week and a half after we met, but we end up seeing each other when I got back. I was pretty anxious at first, but we had a great night out on the town and she invited me to her place for a movie afterwards. We make out on her bed a few minutes into it, but I didn't want to rush her into having sex because I couldn't really tell what she wanted. I didn't pull away or anything but i didn't go for her bra or pants either...
A week later, we go out again and have another great night out on the town. I sleep over again, we kiss, no sex, but plenty of morning cuddles from her and whatnot... She ended up canceling this past weeks date because she had a test to study for. The day we rescheduled ended up not being good for her either because she had to prepare for the following school/work week. She texted me later that night apologizing for canceling and that the weekend had been more hectic than expected. I should also mention she made a date and canceled it between the 2nd and 3rd time because it overlapped pre existing plans. I don't entirely believe shes uninterested because of all the positive signals vs the relatively few confusing ones. I know she's home for holiday this whole week so she's with her family and friends. Its been 5 days and I haven't heard anything since that night, and I feel like if I attempt to reschedule a date she canceled, it will make me look needy or something. Maybe I'm over thinking this. I don't want her to think I'm un-interested or angry for her canceling either. I figure, wait until a week passes and give her a call? All this second guessing makes me really appreciate being single.