Hey everyone. I really could do with some advice...
I have been with my girlfriend for a year now, she has a 5 year old son and i love them both dearly. We are due to move in together and I know she loves me unconditionally.
Previously to our relationship, i was a bit of a wild one! I was never tamed down and never really had a long term relationship. Whilst on a trip away I developed feelings for another girl and I acted on these. She is however from another country. We talked online and my girlfriend saw the conversations. I lied to her telling her that me and the other girl just kissed to protect her feelings. Obviously I havent spoken to the other girl since my girlfirend found out but my feelings just fizzled away and what seems to have turned out to be a holiday fling.
After this we were having a few problems but recently things have seemed to be picking up.
This is where it gets tricky for me...
I am at university at the moment and I change between from being in class to working in a hospital (im doing a nursing degree). On my placement in hospital I met a woman who I had a bit of a crush on. But as the time got longer working there I really felt chemistry between us. At work I never came out as gay as I didnt want this to effect me, she is a flirtacious person and she had no idea that I had a crush on her!
We have kept in touch after working togther as we get on really well but she still has no idea that I have a crush on her. I came out to her outside of work and she is compleatly fine with it, she even admitted having a girlfriend previously but I know that she is prodomentaly straight.
She keeps flirting with me and making comments but I think thats just her personality...I dont know. But what I do know is I have a massive crush on her and I dont know if i really have feelings for her.
My relationship at the moment is okay...but its starting to go flat. I love my girlfriend and I couldnt imagine being without her. Yet I still miss the chase and the excitement of persuing someone new. I think about my crush constantly, Im even dreaming about her.
Please can someone give me some advice?
Do I tell my straight friend I like her or do I stick to my relationship and keep this other girl as a friend.
And if i do tell my crush...how do I explain how I feel about her. Shes straight and I dont want to freak her out....