Girl of my dreams

[Jackoni]

I decided to delete it cause it makes sence what Lite wrote. And in fact it helped just to type down my feelings

[Lite]

OK, so you're in a country far from your usual support structure. I'll be kind here.

You don't know that she's the woman of your dreams, because you don't know what it is like to be in a real actual relationship with her. What you have is a crush, where you have feelings for her, but those feelings are not necessarily reciprocated in the way that you would want.

You need to find a way to understand that she's your friend. She's not your soul mate, or girl of your dreams. She's a friend, you're lonely, and you created a one-sided mental attachment to her.