Oh my god.
I think that you're the one that's going to break this relationship, do him a favour now and give him some PEACE. Damn.
Do you have to question EVERYTHING in your relationship? Have a little trust for gods sake.
To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love; but then one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer, to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love; to be happy then is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy; therefore to be unhappy one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down.