Quote Originally Posted by indigosoul
Rosebud, I hope you won't take this the wrong way given my other responses in other threads, but don't you have enough drama going on right now in your life w/o worrying about this?

There are those who believe that, to a large extent, we set ourselves up for the events that occur in our lives...sometimes w/o our concious awareness.

Suggest you re-read that last advice post of Haywards. Esp. the last paragraph "PS". Theres a message in there you may be missing, I think. Try to read it while being mindful of what I just said above and think about how it might apply to your own situation. Try not to flinch if it becomes painful. Good luck.

ahhh, I think I wasn't reading everything correctly.. Now I understand what both of you were getting at. I do believe we set ourselves up for things sometimes and I completely understand what you guys were talking about now. And unfortunately I can see that. I think I feel a little...not embarrassed but a little....uneasy, looking back on that now.